__When Wesley Met Cordy__
By Kath
The large, ornate room was festooned with happy, smiling people.
Some hung in groups, clutching crystal chalices of champagne and
chatting amiably; others danced with abandon to the latest club mix.
The walls were draped with silver and purple streamers and
decorations, and the chandeliers twinkled brightly, as if winking
knowingly at the crowd below. Amidst all of this, stood a lone figure, a
melancholy cloud hanging dramatically over her head.
Cordelia knew she should be thrilled to be here. These were the rich
and famous of Los Angeles; the ones she had wanted so desperately to
meet, only a few short months ago. She'd gone out and splurged on the
simple, yet elegant, black gown she was wearing and had even paid to
have her hair and makeup done for the first time in ages. It was way
more than she should have spent, especially considering her present
employment situation - or lack thereof - but, after all, as Wesley kept
trying to inform her, this was the *real* start of the new millennium.
Little needles of guilt poked at her conscience, when she thought of
Wesley. Cordelia had deliberately not told him of David Nabbit's
invitation. Ever since Angel had fired everyone, the two of them, along
with Gunn, had been working to maintain Angel Investigations on their
own, operating, once again, out of her apartment. The visions hadn't
stopped; in fact, if anything, they had escalated. The three of them
were exhausted, and cross with each other much of the time.
Christmas had been a dismal affair, although, now that she looked back
on it, she realized Wesley had tried to make it festive for her, bringing in
a little tree and offering to string some lights. At the time she had just
found it irritating. When she'd remembered about David's invitation, she
had selfishly kept it to herself, wanting the chance to be normal for
once, to be around people who didn't know demons existed, just for one
night.
A waiter passed by, laden with trays of steaming hordeurves. [Wesley
would have attacked those with a vengeance] she thought with a smile.
Damn, the needles were becoming jackhammers. What was wrong
with her? She was Queen C. She knew she looked good - hell, she
looked great! So why wasn't she happily chatting up theatrical agents
and future dating potential? Deep down, Cordelia already knew the
answer. Where at one time she would have felt independent and bold,
now all she felt was alone. You weren't supposed to be alone on New
Years Eve. This life wasn't what she wanted anymore. She missed her
friends. Watching as couples swept by her, holding hands, only having
eyes for each other, pangs of jealousy swept through the girl, and she
was finally forced to admit the real truth to herself: she missed
Wesley. True, he could be annoying. Yesterday, when he'd started -
for the third time - to explain how everyone had been wrong last year,
and that *this* year was the start of the new millennium, she had just
wanted to throttle the loquacious man. Still, maybe if she'd taken the
time to really listen to him, instead of blowing him off over and over, he
would have stopped repeating himself, and *maybe*, if she'd really paid
attention, she would have seen that he was just as lonely as she was,
and was reaching out in the only way he knew how.
Cordelia looked at her watch. It read: 11:00 p.m. In one hour, couples
all over the world - okay, in this time zone - were going to be in each
others arms, kissing, and ringing in the New Year together. Abruptly,
with total clarity, she knew where she wanted to be, when the clocks
struck midnight. She only hoped she could make it in time.
*****
Wesley was startled out of his own, private reverie, by a very insistent
knocking on his apartment door. How long had he been standing there,
in front of the open refrigerator, staring into its empty bowels? He had
no idea. He looked at his watch: 11:30. Now who on earth would be
banging on his door at this hour. Shutting the refrigerator again, the
demon hunter picked up a stake, and went to the door. True, vampires
didn't usually knock, but one could never be too careful. Peering
through the peephole, his mouth fell open when he realized who was
out in his hall. Wesley fumbled with the chain and the deadbolt, and
cracked the door open enough to look out.
"Cordelia?"
"Well, duh. Who do you think it is?" She grimaced at him impatiently,
as though he should have been expecting her, and was keeping her
waiting.
Pulling the door open wide, Wesley stood, stunned, his eyes moving up
and down her form, taking in the clingy dress, that shimmered, even in
the dull light of the hallway. Looking down at his own apparel, he
became embarrassingly aware of the grey sweatpants and
faded 'Cambridge' t-shirt he was wearing. "Uh....well...." was all he
managed to get out, before Cordelia swept past him, into his tiny flat.
Dazed, he shut the door behind her, relocking it automatically, before
turning to face her again.
"Cordelia," he looked at his watch again. "It's 11:30. Aren't you running
awfully late for David Nabbit's party?"
He watched in amazement, as the girl's self-confidence seemed to
crumble right before his eyes. She grew pale, and then a pink blush
spread across her cheeks.
"Y-you knew...about the party?" she stammered.
"Yes, of course. I was there when you opened the invitation. Don't you
remember?" A light dawned. "You didn't remember, did you? You
thought I didn't know....and you deliberately didn't tell me. I'm right,
aren't I?" He found himself actually getting angry.
"W-well...." Cordelia began to feel desperate. This was not going the
way she'd planned. Actually, she hadn't figured out what she was going
to do, once she'd gotten there, but this was certainly not a good start.
She could feel tears welling in her eyes. "You're right...and I'm sorry."
A single tear escaped, rolling down her smooth cheek. Instantly, anger
forgotten, Wesley was at her side, leading her to the sofa, arm gently
around her shoulder.
"Cordelia? What's wrong? Why are you here? Did you have a vision?"
She shook her head, and gratefully took the handkerchief he offered,
dabbing at her eyes, trying not to smear her makeup. She didn't want
to end up with raccoon eyes.
"You don't know what I went through to get here," she sniffed.
Wes sat back and studied her closely. "Cordelia, why *are* you here?"
"I just...I thought maybe...you didn't have any plans and were gonna be
here by yourself..." she trailed off.
Wesley's eyebrows shot up incredulously. "So, you felt sorry for me and
thought you would do me the *favor* of gracing me with your
presence." He had jumped up and was now pacing up and down in
front of her.
Uh oh, Cordy knew that voice. It usually meant she'd insulted him
somehow.
"Yes...no, wait! I didn't mean...not that exactly." She never had this
much trouble talking to Wes before, not even back in the Sunnydale
days. He had his defenses up and she probably wasn't going to get out
of this without telling him the truth. [Damn.]
"How come you're so defensive all of a sudden? Can't I just feel like
coming over and hanging out with you?" she hedged.
Wesley stopped pacing. If possible, his eyes grew even wider, and it
took him so long to answer, she was starting to think he hadn't heard
her.
"Come over and 'hang out'?" The ex-Watcher was practically choking on
the words. "On New Year's Eve? When you've been invited to a formal
dress soiree at a millionaire's mansion? In the ten months we've been
working together, you've never once expressed any interest in spending
time with me in the off hours, so...gee, I don't know, Cordelia. I can't
imagine why I would be the least bit suspicious."
[Ouch} She supposed she deserved that. "Alright, I admit it. There is
more to it."
This appeared to placate the young Englishman, as he relaxed a bit, and
sat back down. He even smiled at her, as if he were satisfied he'd won
this round.
Cordelia took a deep breath and looked at her watch. She had twenty
minutes to convince Wesley that she wasn't out to get him. Well, she
was...just not in a bad way.
"Okay, I *was* at the party. You should have seen David's house. All
the decorations...champagne served in real crystal..you would have
loved the shrimp rolls...oh, and I swear I saw Meg Ryan and Russell
Crowe..."
Wesley leaned back, folding his slender arms neatly across his chest.
He was wearing his tolerant face, which indicated she was losing him.
"Right, that's besides the point. Anyway, I was there and I started to
think it would be kinda nice if...you were there...with...me." The rest
came tumbling out in a rush. "So I decided to come here, and here you
are, and here I am, and look, it's almost midnight. Do you have
anything to drink, uh, to toast with? Cause that would be nice." She
was babbling, and she knew it. Good God, she was turning into Willow!
Wesley blinked, took a deep breath, and blinked again. Cordy was sure
that, if she looked deep enough into his eyes - and how come she had
never noticed how beautiful his eyes were before? - she would be able
to see gears turning in his head, as he processed what she'd just told
him.
"Cordy, if this is some sort of joke..."
"Would I joke about missing a celeb-filled party?"
"Why me?"
The question caught the girl off guard. "What?"
"I mean, why not Gunn? Was I closer? Or, maybe he wasn't home..."
Cordelia rested a hand on her friend's knee and smiled brightly at
him. "Because, Silly, I like Gunn, but I *love* you."
An entire cadre of vampires could have burst through the door uninvited,
and Wesley would not have so much as flinched.
"Pardon?" he said at last.
"I know, it took me long enough to realize it, but, I don't believe in
leaving things unsaid, so there ya go. I love you."
Wesley removed his glasses carefully, and rubbed at his tired eyes. His
mind fought to form a coherent thought. It was losing
badly. "Cordelia," he tried to be delicate. "This has been a difficult
time for all of us, what with Angel becoming....so self-absorbed, and the
sacking and all. I can understand how you might feel alone, but you're
not. Gunn and I are you're friends, and we're here for you. You
certainly don't need to resort to such extreme measures, just to have
company for the holidays."
Cordy's eyes narrowed and her body tensed, as she spoke through
gritted teeth. "Is *that* what you think I'm doing? You think my life is
so pathetic that I need to *lie* to you, to pretend I feel something for
you, just so you'll notice me? Yeah, right!" She scooted herself farther
away on the sofa, and refused to look at him.
"I do apologize. That isn't what I meant at all. I would never....I only
meant that, do to these extreme circumstances, I feel you're mistaking
loneliness for something else."
"You don't care about me at all?"
Wesley's eyes grew sad, and seemed to change color, to a darker
blue. "I never said that," he whispered softly, almost to himself. "Your
friendship means a great deal to me, Cordelia. We almost lost it once,
trying to make more of our relationship than we should have. I don't
want to ever jeopardize what we have again. I couldn't bear to lose
you. You're my closest friend."
Clearly touched, Cordy slid back closer to Wesley, hooking her arm
through his, and resting her head lightly on his shoulder. "And you're
mine." To herself, she thought that she wasn't about to give up, not
now that she knew he really did have feelings for her. She just needed
a way to get it through his thick skull, that she'd meant what she said.
Idly, for lack of anything better to do, she picked up the tv remote and
switched it on.
"Ugh, Dick Clark. Why does everyone always want to spend New Years
watching boring old Dick Clark?"
Before Wesley could formulate an answer, the girl had vaulted off the
couch, nearly taking his arm with her, in her haste to reach the
telephone. She'd dialed a number and was now attempting to stretch
the phone cord into the kitchen, assumably so he wouldn't hear her
conversation. Wesley was forced to leap up as well, in order to save
the phone, and the lamp next to it, from certain destruction as they
attempted to sail off the hall table. He was just about to call to her to
stop pulling so hard, when she bounced back out of the kitchen, a grin
on her face that would rival a Cheshire cat's.
"I don't want to know what you're up to now, do I?" he sighed,
resignedly.
"Just wait and see, Mr. Doubting Wesley." She'd brought back a bottle
of wine with her, and two glasses - now his icebox was truly empty -
and was busy pouring each of them a glassful. Wesley returned to his
seat, and gracefully accepted the offered glass. Cordy held up hers as
well.
"A toast....to Dick Clark."
"Uh, to.... what?" Just then, he was interrupted, by a voice booming
from his tv set. "Could you turn that down? I really don't see why...."
Dick Clark: "We don't normally take requests, during our New Years
Across America show, but as a favor to two lovebirds in Los Angeles,
we're going to deliver this message: Cordelia Chase would like
everyone to know that she is truly, madly, and deeply in love with Mr.
Wesley Wyndham-Pryce. So, Wesley, if you're listening, don't let this
one get away..."
Wesley stared in shock, first at the tv screen, then at Cordelia, who was
beaming at him. "W-wha....h-how....? How on earth did you...?"
"It's all who you know." She answered, smugly. "I just phoned David,
and explained the situation to him. He was very sympathetic, really.
He's a pretty influential man, when he wants to be, you know. He called
someone, and before you know it...voila!"
"B-but....." The confused man couldn't think of what came after 'but',
but he was sure something must.
"So, now do you believe me? It's one minute to midnight. Are you
gonna kiss me?"
"Cordelia..." he finally managed to sputter. "I really don't think we
should rush into anything. Perhaps, with time, we could...."
An exaggerated sigh escaped Cordy's lips. "Wes, I give up. If you want
to take things slowly, I guess I can understand that. But, even close
friends are allowed to kiss on New Years, right? I mean, just a friendly
kiss, of course."
Not wanting to disappoint the girl, and still reeling from her public
declaration, Wesley agreed. The replay of the ball dropping in New York
was about to occur, with about 10 seconds to spare, when Cordelia
leaned in and gave him a rather chaste peck on the lips. Relieved that
she was finally seeing things rationally, he was completely taken by
surprise by the full body clinch that followed. Her body seemed to melt
into his, her mouth warm and inviting. Wesley felt his brain explode, as
he relaxed and opened himself up to the sensations swirling through his
body. Somewhere, in the distance, he could hear the sound of noise
makers, fireworks and horns blowing. Not wanting to release her, but
feeling the need to come up for air, he pulled back, only enough to
catch his breath.
"I do suppose, I might be willing to rethink my decision," Wesley
murmured, softly.
Cordy caressed his cheek lovingly, and gazed into his eyes, a
mischievous glint in her eye. "I thought you might."
"Happy New Year," he managed to get out, between kisses.
Cordelia smiled against his lips. "Happy New Millennium, Wes. I love
you."
"I love you too."
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