The bickering had been going on non-stop for most of
the day. The morning had started quiet enough, with
Wesley comlimenting Cordelia on her new dress and
Cordy thanking Wesley for bringing her favorite
donuts. Angel had hopes for a pleasant day. But, those
hopes were dashed soon after, during the "staff
meeting".
"I am NOT going out on surveillance at that club again
with 'Mr. Fashion Disaster' here until he learns how
to dress more...well, non-Wesley like!" Cordelia
announced, defiantly.
Angel groaned inwardly. 'Not a great way to start a
meeting. Typical, of course, but not great.'
Wesley was sputtering and looking indignant, from the
other side of the table.
"Yes, well, at least I haven't had to resort to
shopping the bargain racks at Walmart."
At Cordelia's sudden blush and frown, the eyebrows of
both Wesley and Angel shot up and they looked at each
other in surprise. Wesley had inadvertently stumbled
onto the truth. They young man looked quite pleased
with himself, but, upon a frown from his employer,
changed his expression to one of innocence. His eyes
were still twinkling though.
Cordelia remained somewhat subdued (for her anyway)
and the rest of the meeting went smoothly, but the
bickering began again soon after, and continued for
the rest of the day. First it was what to order for
lunch, followed by jabs at Cordy's lack of cooking
ability, and so on.
Angel didn't really understand why they argued so
much. He knew deep down his two friends really cared
about each other, and besides, he often noticed Wesley
looking at Cordelia, when she wasn't aware of it.
'Hmmm, now that would explain a lot.' A thought was
beginning to dawn on him. 'For a hundreds-year old
vampire, you'd think I'd pick up on these things
quicker.' He smiled to himself. Suddenly, his peace
and quiet was shattered once again by a loud *CRASH*,
followed by a wail from Cordelia.
* * * * *
"Wessssllleeeyyyyy!" (She always did have a way of
annoyingly whining that word whenever she was upset
with him.) "I just bought that plant. Can't you pay
attention to where you're going?!"
"Well, whose brilliant idea was it to put a plant
stand in the middle of the room, anyway?" Wesley
retorted, trying to wipe the worst of the dirt stains
from his white trousers.
Angel sighed, put down his book, and peeked his head
out of his office door. His two employees swung toward
him, both trying to give their version at the same
time.
"If you think I'm going to clean that mess up..."
Cordy began.
"It's not my fault she..." Wesley chimed in.
"ENOUGH!!" Angel roared, game face on. He wasn't that
angry, but sometimes it came in handy, to get his
point across. Most of the time he found these two
amusing, but today they had gotten on his last nerve.
"I don't want to hear it anymore!"
Stunned silence followed, and Angel gave a final glare
before calming himself.
"Alright. All I ask is for a little peace and quiet
around here. OKAY?" He pointedly looked at first
Wesley, and then Cordelia. They both nodded, looking
somewhat embarrassed. "Good. Now, why don't you two go
downstairs and...uhm...inventory the weapons cabinets.
I want names and descriptions, in order, by weapon
type." 'That should keep them busy for a while.' He
smiled to himself. "Oh, and cross reference by country
of origin." He turned briskly and went back into his
office quickly so they wouldn't see him grinning. He
could still hear them though, as they headed for the
elevator.
"Now see what you did?" whispered Cordelia, poking
Wesley in the ribs.
"ME?!" said Wesley, forgetting to be quiet already.
Angel sighed again, and looked at his watch. 7:30. "I
need a change of scenery," he mumbled to himself. He
grabbed his duster and slipped out of the office,
without the others even noticing.
******
Wesley had stopped to gather paper and pen, and a few
books. "Aren't you going to need these to write
everything down?"
They got on the elevator and Wesley pushed the DOWN
button.
"What makes you think I'm going to be the one doing the
writing...oh wait, I forgot my purse." She pushed the
UP button.
You aren't going to need any makeup down there..." as
Wesley pushed the DOWN button again.
There was a sudden sound of grinding gears, followed
by a shuddering of the elevator and then there was no
sound or movement at all.
"What did you do now?!" an exasperated Cordelia pushed
uselessly at the elevator buttons.
"I don't think that will do any good, Cordelia. I
believe we're stuck for the moment."
Ignoring him, she continued to push the buttons, more
frantically now.
"ANGEL!!! HELP!!! I'm stuck down here with Wesley!
You've gotta come get me out!!"
"Well, thank YOU very much." Wesley grumbled. When
there was no immediate response from above, Wesley
checked his watch. "It's after sundown so I suppose
Angel has gone out for a bit. I'm afraid we will have
to wait for his return." And he sat down on the
elevator floor. 'Trousers are already ruined.' He
eyed the dirt stains still on his pantleg.
"Well, don't just sit there. You're a guy, or so you
tell me, so do something mechanical already. Get us
out of here."
Wesley decided to ignore that last insult. "All right.
What would you have me do, equipped as I am with only
a ball point pen? Really, I was trained as a Watcher.
I am not McGyver." All those late nights of watching
old reruns on tv could come in handy now and then.
"Well, if you'd let me go back for my purse..." she
trailed off, knowing deep down he was right. She
looked with distain at the rather grubby looking
floor, gave an exasperated shrug and flopped down at
the other end of the elevator. For a moment they just
looked at each other, like two boxers in their
corners, waiting for the bell signaling the next
round.
* * * * *
Wesley turned and peered thru the bars of the elevator
door. He was trying not to think about being trapped
in a small enclosed space, but he could feel the panic
starting to rise. He could hear his heart pounding in
his ears already. He had to think of something -
anything - else. He glanced at Cordy again. She had
pulled out a nail file from somewhere and was
pointedly looking anywhere but at him. Perhaps if he
were to read one of his books. He opened the top one
and tried to concentrate on the words on the page,
instead of the walls around him.
Cordelia peeked up at him. 'Oh, that is just like
him. Reading a book at a time like this.' She was
beginning to wish she hadn't been quite so snippy
before. Talking would certainly pass the time quicker,
even if it was to "Mr. Book Smart."
"So, uh, what'cha reading..." She was trying to sound
casual. "A little Anne Rice?"
Wesley eyed her over the top of his book. Cordelia had
shifted around, so that her slender long legs were
stretched out, brushing lightly against his leg. She
was twirling her hair around her finger in that
engaging way she had. And she was smiling. That did
it. He could never stay angry with her for long,
especially when she smiled at him. He sighed and put
down the book.
"Actually, it's called 'Thirteenth Century Daemon
Weaponry of Eastern Europe.'" He smiled at the face
she made. "I confess. It's a pretty dry read. I only
brought it with me to help with the inventory."
"Yeah, look at the bright side. At least we won't be
stuck down there in those cabinets all night with
those icky cobwebs and filthy old weapons. I really
think Angel could hire a housekeeper to clean up now
and then."
"Ah, yes. I can hear it now," Wesley adopted a
somewhat falsetto voice,"Mr. Angel, what are you doing
with all these deadly weapons?...Why is your
refrigerator full of blood?...Why did you turn into a
big pile of dust when I opened the blinds to wash the
windows?"
Cordelia giggled, in spite of herself. "I suppose
you've got a point there. It would be hard to explain
the whole 'grrrr' thing."
There was a long awkward pause, as neither could think
of anything to say to the other. "Ahem", Wesley
cleared his throat. He was suddenly very thirsty.
Cordelia looked at him, rather expectantly. The young
man tried to think of something clever, and failed.
"So, ah, where do you think Angel has gotten to?"
"Well, with our luck he's back at that club we were at
last night, trying to find a witness to that
dismemberment the other night. Yuck! Why do demons
have to get all disgusting like that? Can't they just
kill and be done with it? Like I want to have to look
at body parts lying all over the place."
Wesley smiled grimly. "Yes, well, at least now you'll
be saved the embarrassment of being seen in public
with me again tonight. What am I again? I believe it
was 'Mr. Fashion Disaster'."
'Now why does he have to remember absolutely
everything I say?' Cordelia did feel a little bad
about that remark she'd made earlier. His taste in
clothing wasn't really that bad, for an uptight
British guy. He was beginning to loosen up a little,
with fashion advice from her, of course. For some
reason, he'd set her off this morning. A thought
tickled the back of her mind, but she pushed it firmly
aside and put on her extra-friendly smile.
"Oh Wesley," she drawled, in her extra-friendly voice.
"You know I was just kidding this morning. Stop taking
everything I say so seriously."
He eyed her suspiciously. He knew that tone of voice
and that smile and they were generally not to be
trusted. Still, she was almost apologizing.
"Hmmmmm. Well, I suppose you're right. I thought that
perhaps I had done something to make you angry with
me. Glad to see I was wrong."
The thought was back in Cordelia's mind, and she
couldn't help herself. "Well, there was that one thing
about last night..." A little voice inside her was
telling her to stop talking, but it was too late.
* * * * *
Wesley drew himself up sharply. "What about last
night?"
"At the club...We were supposed to be posing as a
couple out on a date, so we could keep an eye on that
bartender, weren't we?"...I just thought you were
making a bit of a fool of yourself with that blonde
bimbette, that's all."
"We were also there to discover any potential
witnesses to the crime." Wesley replied, indignantly.
"I thought she was a rather sweet young woman," he
added.
"Oh, pu-lease. Did you see that dress? And those
shoes? She had 'slut' written all over her. I'm just
trying to offer you a little advice here."
"You're a fine one to talk. You had men practically
falling over each other to give you their phone
numbers! I fail to see what this has to do with you
being angry..."
A light bulb went on in Wesley's head and his eyes got
as big as saucers. "You were JEALOUS!" he exclaimed,
half accusing and half amused, pointing at her for
emphasis.
Cordelia leapt to her feet. (Not easily done when
sitting on the floor of an elevator, but she managed.)
This had been what the little voice had been trying to
warn her about. Now the voice was screaming 'Deny!
Deny! Deny!'
"You don't know what you're talking about. You were
the one who was jealous!" She eyed him closely. That
idea hadn't occurred to her until she'd said it out
loud. "You were, weren't you."
Now it was Wesley's turn to look uncomfortable. he
felt at an incredible disadvantage, so he stood up
too. This conversation wasn't going well at all.
"You're the one that was practically chasing me, when
we were back in Sunnydale, you know." 'Yes, good. Put
her back on the defensive, until you can think your
way out of this.'
Cordelia knew that was going to come back and haunt
her someday. While her brain was busy being astonished
at the realization that she really HAD been jealous
when she saw Wesley talking to that pretty blonde, her
mouth kept on going without her.
"I was still in high school then. I didn't know what I
was doing. Really, I can't imagine what I saw in you
back then. I mean, you were pretty wimpy, and you
weren't a very good Watcher. Look how Faith turned
out."
She'd gone too far. How could she have brought Faith
into this, after what the rogue slayer had done to her
former watcher. Cordelia could see the hurt in
Wesley's eyes, as he stiffened and stared at her, too
stunned to talk. His mouth was hanging open slightly,
like a silent "oh", and he was clenching his fists.
Were those tears in his eyes? He turned away from her,
without saying another word.
"Wes, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean it!" she blurted
out. "You were right. I WAS jealous and I didn't want to
admit it." She couldn't stand looking at that back,
knowing she had hurt him with her careless remarks.
She really did care for the man. She had just never
admitted it before - to him or to herself.
* * * * *
Wesley stared vacantly at the wall. His mind was
swirling, and he couldn't organize his thoughts.
Images of Faith; memories of the pain she had
inflicted on him just a few short months ago;
Cordelia. All these things swam together and for a
moment all he felt was the pain. Not physical pain,
but the pain of rejection he had felt all his life.
First his father had rejected him for being too weak,
then Faith, for being too stupid and pigheaded to
understand her, and now Cordelia. He could hear her
talking in the background but wasn't really listening.
Cordelia stopped and watched Wesley for a moment. His
breathing was ragged, like he was trying not to cry.
She'd never imagined that the mere mention of Faith's
name could cause such a reaction in her friend.
'Friend.' She hadn't really thought about what a good
friend he was to her before. He was always
complimenting her, looking out for her, trying to
protect her. And now she'd hurt him terribly. She went
over and lightly reached out to put her hand on his
shoulder.
"Wesley..." she began quietly. He flinched at her
touch and she quickly withdrew her hand and backed
away, tears welling up in her eyes.
After a moment, Wesley turned to face her. He had
gotten his emotions back under control, at least on
the surface, and his face was like stone.
Cordelia looked Wesley in the eye, to be sure she had
his attention, and so that she wouldn't be able to
hide her feelings from him.
"Oh, Wesley," she began again. Her voice quivered a bit,
but she had to continue. "I can't tell you how sorry I
am. For everything. I don't know why I said what I
did. I didn't mean it." Her voice cracked, and tears
started streaming down her face. Wesley's expression
softened and some of the tenseness left his body. He
started to speak, but she stopped him.
"No, wait! I need to say this." She couldn't look at
his face any longer. She looked instead at his hand,
which was still clenched in a fist. She took it in
hers and started smoothing out the fingers, one by
one, as she continued. "I've been terrible to you,
since you came here. I know I have. And you didn't
deserve it. I had such grand plans for my life when I
moved out here, and you kinda represented the life I
left behind. To go back to that life would be like
admitting my failure." She smiled a little in spite of
herself. "I know, I know. 'Cordelia Chase admits to
failure? Stop the presses!'" She took a deep breath,
and the rest came tumbling out in a rush. "Anyway, I
never meant to hurt you...and you were right. I was
jealous and I DO have feelings for you. And now you'll
never forgive me, because I don't deserve it." There,
she'd said it, and it was out in the open. The silence
that followed was deafening.
* * * * *
"Have you finished speaking to my hand now?" Wesley's
voice was calm, and she thought she even heard a hint
of amusement in it. She peeked slowly up at his face
and was drawn immediately to the tenderness in his
eyes. A small smile twitched at the corners of his
lips. "You're not completely to blame, you know. If
we're going to be completely honest here, I was
jealous as all hell last night, when you were flirting
with those men at the bar. I suppose that's why I
talked to that woman as long as I did. She really
wasn't my type at all."
"What IS your type?" Cordy's voice was barely above a
whisper. Wesley reached up with his free hand, to tuck
an errant strand of hair back behind her ear and to
gently caress her cheek. She suddenly realized the
fingers of his other hand were entwined with hers.
"I don't think I really need to tell you that, Miss
Chase." They both smiled at the name he had always
refered to her by, when they first knew each other.
Their eyes were locked and they were both breathless
with anticipation. Finally, after what seemed like an
eternity, Wesley leaned down and gave her the gentlest
of kisses. His second one was more forceful, almost
hungry. He put his arms around her and drew her to him.
She kissed him back, just as passionately, almost as
if it were a contest. Finally, out of breath, Wes was
forced to break away. He hugged her to him tightly,
and then released her slightly, so he could look into
her eyes again. His glasses began to fog and he had to
quickly remove them, rubbing them on his shirt sleeve.
"Damned allergies!" He tried to sound indignant.
Cordelia just giggled at him and took the glasses from
him, folding them neatly and sticking them into his
shirt pocket. She ran her fingers through his short
dark hair and pulled him to her for another kiss. He
stopped her suddenly, and she looked worried for a
moment.
"I just wanted to tell you, I love you. Cordelia
Chase."
"I love you too, Wesley Wyndham-Pryce."
They embraced again, and were so enthralled in each
other, that neither noticed the sudden jolt of the
elevator, nor the squeaking of the gears, as the
elevator once again began the descent it had started
several hours before. They were still kissing when the
elevator reached its final destination and the doors
automatically slid open.
Standing there, with his mouth hanging open in
surprise, was one very confused vampire.