"Why can't I go?" came a squeal echoing from
the panelled walls of the school.
"Because you're a little twerp," an adolescent
answered. "Now go away."
Riley caught himself grinning, and tried to
stifle it, until he saw the same expression
on the Headmaster's face.
"Cases of mine?" Riley asked.
"The little one, anyway. Mike Evans.
Orphaned at age seven and placed with us a
year ago, at nine, after running away from
three foster homes. Mike has trouble fitting
in with his peers. He romanticizes his life
to the point where everyone is either a
sterling knight on a quest, or else a troll
with some malignant purpose."
"If I were in his place, I might romanticize
a little, myself."
"Mr. Finn, this institution prides itself on
helping these unfortunate boys become useful
members of society. Most of them go on to
college, and a number of our alumni are
professionals with some of the most respected
firms in the country. Why, just last week
a young attorney who grew up here got a job
with Wolfram and Hart, down in Los Angeles.
The only way that sort of thing happens is if
the children set themselves goals and make
step by step plans about reaching them. We
do not have time for romanticism here." The
Headmaster took a deep breath. "Or for rants
directed at new interns, either. I'm sorry
if I landed on you. Come on, and I'll show
you your office."
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
"So how did it go?" Buffy asked when they came
up for air.
"All right."
"Just 'all right?' I thought this was supposed
to be your stepping stone to a career as a
psychiatrist."
"Psychologist. Psychiatrists have to go to
medical school, and I'm out of money."
"Don't change the subject. Why just 'all
right?'"
"I think maybe they put too much pressure on
kids that are already traumatized by whatever
put them in an orphanage to start with. The
ones I saw all act younger than their ages,
and there seems to be a mass hallucination
going around."
"A mass hallucination?"
"Yeah. Sometimes kids get sent to the
counselors just for saying they saw them."
"Saw what?"
"Phantoms. Vague shapes moving in the halls
and on the stairs."
"Ghosts?"
"None of them actually use that word. They
think they're people. One young man can point
out specific members of the staff that he's
seen as phantoms, but these people say they
were nowhere near at the time."
"Don't you think these kids might need more
help than a grad student doing an internship?"
"Buffy, I've only been there one day. I don't
know what they need yet, but I do know what I
need." His hand slid between the fabric of
her shirt and her skin and cupped itself
around her breast, and they didn't talk any
more.
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
"They give me a headache," Mike said. Riley
scribbled on his notepad.
"What kind of headache?" he asked. "Back or
front or on the sides, or what?"
"This side," Mike said, and tapped his left
temple. "It's just when I see them, and when
they're gone it goes away."
"Do you get the headache first, or see the
people?"
"It depends. If I'm looking away from them,
I get the headache, and when I turn around,
they're there. Otherwise it's pretty much at
the same time."
"Do any of the others get headaches?" More
specifically, did Mike know if any of them
got headaches?
"Justin said he did, but Justin doesn't see
them any more."
"How's that?"
"The Head took him in his office and showed
him something, and after that he said he didn't
see them." Mike was starting to blubber.
"Did he say anything else?"
The child shook his head, but he was still
crying.
"Are any of the others afraid of the people?"
Mike shook his head. "They're afraid of
getting kicked out. If you don't do what they
say and be what they want, they don't want you
and...." The sentance tapered off into sobs.
"There's always going to be someone to take
care of you, Mikey." The child didn't look
convinced. "You're a neat kid," Riley said,
"and there'll always be someone who wants
you."
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
"Are any of the children actually expelled?"
Riley asked the Head.
"Rarely, but if someone has a bad enough
attitude, we have to get rid of them."
"A bad attitude?"
"A home like this is like an organism, Riley.
Each organ has its own function, and if one
of us tries to evade our destiny, we throw
the whole system out of kilter. If we all
work together and don't disrupt things, though,
everyone can enjoy the benefits."
"The children, the ones who see things...."
"The ones who think they see things, surely."
"The ones who think they see things. For some
of them, this system doesn't seem to be
working. It's fine if you want to be a doctor
or a lawyer, but you've got gifted athletes
and musicians in here, too, and...."
"And those are fields in which it's much
harder to achieve any success. The children
will do better if we encourage them along more
realistic lines."
"A mediocre copywriter as opposed to a
brilliant poet?"
"The copywriter will make more money, Riley."
"Yeah, I suppose he will."
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
"Did you ever think about having kids, Buffy?"
"I'm the Slayer. I'm not going to live long
enough."
"There are girls from your high school class
with two kids, now."
"Two kids and a singlewide and a husband with
a job at Walmart, if they have a husband at
all."
"Do you want a husband?"
"Do you want a baby?"
"I don't know. I never thought about it until
I had to deal with the kids at the home. They
all need so much...."
"I think there are enough kids in the world
who need loved without you and I making one
when I'm not going to be around to take care
of it."
"You don't know that."
"I'm the Slayer."
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
She didn't want children. Riley had come back
to the home in the afternoon to check out the
areas where ghosts were reported, and see if
there was a non-supernatural explanation, but
he couldn't keep his mind on it. Buffy didn't
want children. She'd dodged the question
about marriage. Not that he hadn't regretted
it the minute he'd said it. He'd gotten a
sudden vision of himself in a pink tux, but
she hadn't taken it as a proposal. She hadn't
taken it at all. It was as if she didn't
think they had a future together. Riley was
beginning to wonder if they did, and the
thought sent a chill down his spine.
Well, something sent a chill down his spine.
Maybe it was a draft. Riley turned around
and found a door open, a door that had been
closed a moment before. It was definately
colder, too. He stuck his head into the room.
"Hello?" There was no one there. Okay, that
didn't mean there were ghosts. It was an old
building. The door could have swung open
because of a sudden gust of wind, or something.
Not that there was a window inside. The room
might have been a large closet once, or a
passage leading from the door he'd come through
to the other one, in the middle of a side wall.
There was no sound through there. There
wouldn't be, with all the boys at dinner.
Riley tried the door, and it swung open into
the Headmaster's office, with its walls of
bookshelves and the great French doors open to
the terrace just as they had been during
Riley's last visit. That would explain the
draft, then. It just blew under the door.
Something had changed, though, since he'd been
there before. There was a book open on the
table, a book giving off very strong vibes.
Vibes, indeed. You'd think Riley was... was
one of Buffy's little gang of hangers-on,
believing every strangeness was a sign of
demons coming to take over the world.
Was it strange? The book, not the Scoobies.
Riley stood over it and peered at the open
page. It wasn't any alphabet he knew, and
he'd seen enough of them since he started
dating Buffy, in Giles's books or Willow's
spells. These letters seemed to slither
across the page, and the ink was, well,
glistening.
Okay, there was something objectively strange
about the book. Riley was not imagining it
just to get back some of Buffy's interest.
The book was weird. Well, who you gonna call?
If Riley asked, Giles would probably make a
housecall, but Riley didn't really want occult
investigation to be a subcategory on the report
on his internship. There was another way. The
day staff was gone until morning. The terrace
doors were open, and likely to stay that way.
Okay, do it before you run out of nerve. Riley
tucked the book under his arm and strolled out
on the terrace, and thence through the matching
door to his own office. Book into bookbag,
and out to his car. Nothing could be simpler.
Nothing at all.
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
"You realize that what you've done amounts to
breaking and entering, burglary...."
"Just look at the book, Giles. The book."
"This is... strange. Look at these symbols."
Riley looked.
"Aren't those some of the elemental symbols
I've seen Willow use?"
"Yes, she took them from the Enochian alphabet.
This, though, is an entire language, and not
one I'm familiar with."
"It gives me the creeps."
"It's not of this world, or so I believe. It
seems to be... look at that!"
Riley looked, but it made no more sense than
before.
"This book, this entire book is a spell to
capture the unwary, to bind...." Giles
snapped the book shut.
"What?" said Riley. Giles looked at him,
those intensely green eyes like sweet spring
meadows to play in....
Riley jerked away. Where had that come from?
"What kind of spell?" he asked.
"I think you know."
"Come on, Giles." Somehow, of itself, no
doubt, Riley's hand had risen to Giles's face.
His fingers were tracing the Watcher's cheek,
the angle of his jaw.
"It creates a bond between the user and a
person he entices to view it."
"You mean, like when you said 'Look here,' and
I looked?"
"Something of the sort, yes."
Riley's fingers wandered into Giles's hair
and made tiny circles against his scalp.
"What kind of bond, Giles?"
"I can't imagine it working like this at the
home, with the children. We'd surely have
heard something."
"Maybe it keys to our personalities."
"Could be. You are certainly one of the most
over-sexed human beings I've ever met."
Riley held Giles's face between his hands.
"Is that going to be a problem?" he asked.
"I think we're about to give ourselves a
tremendous problem," said Giles.
"How's that?"
"The attraction is mutual," he said, and then
his lips met Riley's.
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
Riley came back out of the bathroom, still
unable to locate his underwear.
"Take a pair of mine, if you like," Giles
murmurred from the bed.
"I didn't mean to wake you." Riley spotted
white cotton peeking from under the bed,
squatted down to get it and exhaled sharply.
"Sore?"
"How long before I can walk straight? I mean,
are people going to look at me tomorrow and
know?"
"Have you never been with a man before?"
"Actually, no, that was not included in our
list of Initiative recommended recreational
activities."
"I didn't hurt you, did I? Come here."
"I need to get that book back before it's
missed."
"It's barely ten. Come here, and turn around."
Riley did, and a finger probed at the tender
bit.
"It's not bleeding," Giles told him. The
finger worked deeper, and ecstasy bloomed.
"Giiiillessssss...."
"You like that?"
"YYeeesssss... yes, yes, yes!" He turned,
and his reawakened manhood bounced off the
Watcher's face.
"Here! Watch where you put that thing!"
"Yeah. Giles? Can I put it... can I do you
this time?"
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
"I just left something in my office," Riley
told the security guard. "I'll only be a
moment." These people were unbelievable.
Terrace doors wide open at three in the
morning. Still, it made things easier for
Riley. He popped the book back into place,
opened at the same page, and then hurried back
to his own office. It was incredible. Someone
could just waltz in here at any time, and no
one would ever know.
Riley was so caught up in that train of
thought that he didn't notice the wavering
figure on the terrace that followed him back
through his office door.
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
Riley woke in a strange bed, with somewhat
more warmth sprawled across his chest than he
was accustomed to.
Giles. He'd had sex with Giles. All night
long, except for a break to return the book,
he'd had kinky and disgusting sex with another
man.
And, judging by his body's response to the
memory, he was about to do it again.
Giles whispered something in his sleep, and
his mouth moved over Riley's chest until it
captured a nipple. Riley felt his body flex
as if to totally enfold his lover.
"Good?" Giles whispered, his eyes now open and
dancing with mischief.
"Better than good. I didn't know they were
so sensitive." Giles had moved to the other
nipple, and Riley was actually clawing at the
sheets with the intensity of his touch.
"No one's done this for you before?"
"No, Buffy's kind of...."
And like that, the spell was broken. Giles
rested his forehead against Riley's chest for
a moment, and then rolled away.
"Buffy," he said. "Oh, God, poor Buffy."
"We don't have to tell her," Riley said.
"Would you lie to her, then?"
"We might not have to. I mean, Buffy and I
have kind of been growing apart lately.
Maybe she doesn't have to know we were
together before she and I were apart."
Giles glared at him.
"Buffy," he said, enunciating very clearly,
"is my very dear friend, and she is going to
be terribly hurt over this. We can't just
wish things into being all right."
"You care about her."
"Yes, I do."
"Well, I care about you. Your whole life is
wrapped up in this Watcher thing, dedicated to
this teenage girl. You deserve better, Giles.
You deserve to be happier than this."
"You care about me?"
"I said I did!"
"And in a year's time, will you feel about me
as you feel about Buffy now?"
"Giles, it's not the same thing."
"It is exactly the same thing. Go home, Riley.
This is over."
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
"I'm told you were here late last night," the
Head said to Riley.
"Yes, I... to tell you the truth, I'd got lost
earlier on and picked up something that I
thought I'd misplaced, but it wasn't mine, so
I put it back."
"Did you? No harm done, then?"
"Harm... harm is not the word I was thinking
of." It wasn't. He'd been to the pinnacle of
human experience, and then been plunged to its
nadir. It was over. It had barely begun, and
it was over.
"Perhaps you're going to fit in here better
than we could have imagined, Riley," said the
Head. "Come over here. There's something I
want you to see." The Headmaster put an arm
around Riley's shoulders, and led him to the
book.
"I don't think that's a very good idea," said
Riley, and stepped away from the Head.
"I don't think you have a great deal of
choice," came the answer. Around him three
figures shimmered into view, each touching
a mechanical device.
"Come along, Riley," said the Head. "It's
much easier if we don't have to use force."
It could not be. It would not be. Riley was
not going to let his... his self get wound up
in some organization with an amoral agenda
that thought of him as a cog. The men
approached, men he knew, staff from the school.
He had no choice. He had to look. He had to,
but he was not going to get lost.
Think of something. Think of Buffy, Buffy's
breasts sweet and perky and all tight against
his lips, and... and Giles. Giles sprawled on
his bed, his balls swollen almost round and
pressed right up against his hard cock, and
Riley just barely touching the warm skin with
his tongue... the book yawned open in front
of him. Riley could feel space and time
drawing away, leaving him alone. Alone with
Giles.
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
Much later, he felt himself sag to the floor.
"It's not going to work," the Head said.
"Somehow, he's already bonded."
"What shall we do?" one of the others asked.
"Kill him," said the Head. "We can't risk
the operation being compromised. The people
we place are going to be far too useful in
the coming century. Kill him, and take him
through the Portal at the ruined church."
"I don't think so," someone said, as if from
far away. Riley felt rather than heard the
fight, the whiz of crossbow bolts, the screams
of demons. He felt the Head lose his human
form and become just what he called himself,
a gigantic head with vampire's fangs and a
vestigial gut dangling from its neck. Idly
Riley wondered where Buffy would stake the
thing, since it didn't appear to have a heart.
He couldn't stay awake to find out, though.
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
"Riley?"
"Buffy?" He blinked. He was warm and clean
and lying in his own bed. "How did I get...
how did you know?"
"Giles knew. He... he felt that you were in
trouble, that you were calling for help."
"Yeah."
"He told me, you know. It's all right."
"Told you what?"
"About the spell. About you two getting all
hot and sticky last night."
"Oh." He'd told her. Giles had gone to
Buffy and confessed. What kind of an
exhibitionist was he, telling Buffy something
like that?
"But it's all right. I mean, it was a spell,
right? You couldn't help yourselves."
"Yeah. It was a spell."
"Anyway, I just wanted you to know that I
know, and it's okay. I mean, I understand."
"I love you." It sounded hollow, even to
Riley. Buffy bent over and kissed him.
"I love you," he said again, and it was easier
this time. "I love you and I want to be with
you, but...."
Buffy sat up.
"But what?" she asked.
"But this spell. It's like there's a residue,
an aftertaste in my mouth."
"What are you saying?"
"Help me get over him, Buffy. Help me get him
out of my system."
"That sounds like fun," she said, "but first
you have to promise me something. You have to
promise me that if you ever get busy with a
guy again, I get to watch."
"You're kidding, right?"
"I'm sitting here thinking about you and Giles,
and I'm getting turned on."
"Turned on?"
"Uh-huh." She bent and kissed him again, and
he could feel the intensity of it.
"You are turned on, aren't you?"
"Tell me what happened." She slipped under
the covers and settled beside him, her hand
teasing at his chest. "I want to hear about
every flick of your tongues, every stroke of
every finger, until what you did is as much
a part of the two of us as the two of you.
Tell me about it."
And he did.