__Thoughts of the Newly Unemployed__
By Ashley
"...you're all fired."
Fired. Sacked. Let go.
For the second bloody time. I have a *wonderful*
track record.
And, for the second time, it's all my fault. It's
not really a surprise, anyway. I'm a failure. I failed
to help Buffy, I failed to help Faith, and now I've
failed to help Angel. Yep, you've a *wonderful*
career, Wes. Idiot.
Damnit, stop thinking like that! I have to find some
way to fix the situation, not blame myself! Angel
needs guidance, not someone wallowing in their own
damn sympathy. If I could just get to him... but calm
and rational discussion didn't work the first time,
why should it work now? If Angel turns dark, a
fireside chat isn't going to help much. I need some
way to protect the others, to keep them from getting
h-
Getting hurt! That's why he fired us! Angel wanted
us out of the way, so we wouldn't get caught in the
crossfire - so we wouldn't become bait. Well at least
he cares. Hah. We're a team, a *family* for Christ's
sake! If he goes after them alone, he'll be killed, or
worse...
But I warned him of that, did't I? Even the Caritas
host told him this isn't right. But he didn't
listen...
Maybe I should just leave. I'll take Cordelia, we'll
follow her visions together. We'll become rogue demon
hunters, and... and... and I'm a fool. That's not a
way out... I can't do that to her. We have to face
Angel, not run and hide.
So I'm back to square bloody one.
I can't believe he sacked me...
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