__Indescribable__
By Andrea
Indescribable.
That's the only word that comes to mind right now.
Indescribable.
The rush, the feel of the Slayer's power coursing
through me was unlike anything I've ever experienced.
And I highly doubt I ever will.
Fast and furious, this wind of strength shot through
me, hitting me square in the chest, exploding like a
bullet, sending the strength fragments throughout my
body.
As the spell progressed, so did the power. With each
spoken word, each turn of the card, the heat
increased, an inferno rising up in me. Scraping,
clawing like an caged animal trying to break free.
What I thought was Buffy's power causing this, I
realize now it was mine. My own power trying to escape
from me to join with hers. To become one force,
unstoppable in it's quest for justice.
And I had never felt more alive.
Pulsating and tingling, I felt Buffy's power encompass
me, drawing me to her in a way that I never expected.
It felt like I was a part of her and she a part of me,
like I was there fighting with her and she was here,
spellcasting with me. That we were one mind, one
spirit, one entity.
And it was then, that I'd felt more closer to her than
ever. That we were connected somehow in a way no one
else would ever be.
After, when I talked to Willow and Xander, they too
admitted they also felt her power. But, not as strong
as I had. Xander had described it as it being similar
to the frequent pains he'd experienced every time he
had a bad taco, uncomfortable but nothing major.
Then, Willow had described it like her body had a bad
burn on it, like the ones she gets from too much
tanning at the beach. Uncomfortable but also, nothing
too major.
I wonder why I was the only one who had this
unmeasurable connection, this power breathing like a
life inside of me. Why my whole body felt alive and
why I felt so intune with Buffy?
Is it because I'm her Watcher? That she and I have
some sort of unique connection that binds us together
in a way no one else can. Has it always been there,
living quietly like a volcano, waiting for the right
time to erupt? Or was it a one time deal? One instant
coming together that will never to be felt again.
I've been wanting to ask Buffy about this but I've
been somewhat afraid to. I don't know of what really,
but I know that I am. I've thought about talking to
her about this but I know that might raise some issues
between us that may cause more harm than good.
Between Adam, the Initiative and Riley, she's had
more than she can handle and bringing this up will
only add more complications that I won't bestow on
her. I care for her far too much to do that.
So, for now, I think it's best not to say anything.
Maybe someday, when things calm down. I'll tell her.
Tell her about the experience and ask if she had felt
the same way. And when that day comes, I know it will
be something. Something...
Indescribable.
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