Our Lives Are Different Than Other People's.
written by Glossolalia
I shouldn't even be doing this. Kate Bolin once wrote, on just this topic: You can'tforce yourself to like Giles/Oz. It
doesn't happen that way. Either you're automatically going "Oh. Yes. Please," or you're not. You can't leap in expecting to learn to love
it, and you can't write it without loving it.
I should take up a brush pen or strum an unplugged electric guitar or write several haiku rather than an essay, and certainly not a
This is a ship about subtext and subtlety, extrapolation and exploration, sounds and gazes.
There's no declaiming here, and while there's a hell of a lot of pain, there's very little *noise*. There's the Velvet Underground and Yo
La Tengo, hamachi and jasmine tea, heavy iron cages and heavier wooden bookshelves, vinyl albums and beat-up vans.
There's just Giles and Oz and what might be.
Giles and Oz are the quiet ones, frequently found alone in the dark playing their guitars. They're both thoughtful and capable of deep,
sustained emotion, but neither is very flashy or dramatic when it comes to such emotion. While it's possible to argue that the bulk of
their canon identities derives from the women in their lives - Buffy for Giles, and Willow for Oz - the characters also stand quite well
on their own as steady, stoical souls who might just be a little too lonely for their own good.
As a pairing, the appeal comes in the study of their contrasts - young/older, autodidact/highly educated, loosely
unconventional/tradition-bound, notoriously silent/articulately, if stammeringly, voluble, werewolf/Watcher - as well as in the meeting
of their similarities: music, intelligence, loyalty, and a taste for the periphery and for escape. The ship's not really for those who
want a lot of high drama and mega-angst in their fic, because Giles and Oz are going to persist, work out problems, and never waste their
time gnashing their teeth and rending their garments. Think of Giles, fingers splinted, at the end of "Becoming, Part 2"; he's just been
tortured for *hours* by Angelus, yet there he is, back at work; Oz's lowest moment, when held captive by the Initiative in "New Moon
Rising", is simply a silent, naked huddle in the corner of a cage.
Rather than high angst, the pairing provides the sort of quiet you can't find in other Jossverse ships; this is a couple who'd willingly
and happily spend an afternoon (or eight pages of a fic) just reading together. This is not to say, of course, that all is cozy
domesticity and schmoop, only that as two of the smartest people in Sunnydale, they much prefer books, music, conversation, and excellent
sex to anything else.
It's impossible to ignore the age difference between these two, and some fairly decent fic has concentrated solely on the appeal of Oz's
youth to Giles. I'd like to believe, however, that the age difference is less a solely aesthetic matter than it is a complicating factor
along several dimensions. If one were to write Giles/Oz where it's all about the bare young skin and untouched innocence, it might as
well be Willow or Xander in Oz's place. It's more interesting to think about what Oz might be attracted to in Giles' age, what problems
the age difference might cause, their respective opinions on the matter, and so on. As a ship, G/O requires a fairly particular take on
both characters in order to work, but this is especially true of Giles' characterization. He has to be written not only as the decent and
caring man he is onscreen, but his willingness to enter a relationship with a much younger man must be well-developed and thought-out.
The Giles of G/O, in its many forms, is in many ways one of the most complex and well-written Gileses in fanfic; those dedicated to
writing this ship share, whatever their other differences, an appreciation for Giles as Watcher, as librarian/historian, as former
demon-channeler, and as forever wanna-be rockstar. All these facets of Giles are drawn on when writing him with Oz; he's not *just*
Buffy's Watcher, never *simply* reluctant pater or *merely* sexy older man. He's all of those, and more. It's easy to reduce the pair to
a dirty old man and luscious young thing; it's much more rewarding, though far more difficult, to tease out just what it is in Giles and
Oz that draws them together.
That said, however, it's important to note that the tenor of Oz's relationship to Giles differs considerably from those of the rest of
the Scoobies. Oz is not a member of the core four, nor does he seem to expect and need the same sort of mentoring and looking after that
Xander, Willow, and Buffy all look for from Giles. At the same time, he also doesn't indulge in the sort of routine denigration of Giles
("His diapers were tweed!") that all three, plus Cordy, enjoy. Oz, alone among his peers, maintains his own life and circle of friends,
most notably Devon and their band, unconnected with the world of slayers and demons. Even Cordelia's social life shifts (she would say
*suffers*) when she learns about slaying and becomes acquainted with the trio. Despite becoming the most *affected* of all the kids by
the monstrous world, through Jordy's bite, Oz remains apart within the insular world of slayage.
In the midst of the stress over the mayor's impending ascension at graduation, Willow rattles off a number of spells she's found: "If we
want to make ferns invisible, or communicate with shrimp, I've got the goods right here." Oz gives one of his serene nods and notes, "Our
lives are different than other people's." This observation sums up the Scoobie experience, but even more than that, it *is* Giles and Oz.
Their lives differ from Buffy's, Willow's, Xander's and Cordy's. Giles will always be the odd man out in a group of people a generation
younger, a keen and sensitive man whose sexuality is dismissed as "very gross" and whose intelligence is, while respected, often the butt
of wisecracks. Oz will always be a werewolf, a marker of difference that's nothing like Buffy's Slayer status or Willow's innate
Wicca-ness. Those qualities are strengths, for all the angst they cause Buffy and Willow over years, but Oz has little to offer as a
werewolf beyond an enhanced sense of smell - and Angel already has that, plus night-vision.
In a group already divided from the normal world, then, Giles and Oz are different from the rest and the dynamic between them differs as
well. As Sheila Perez once said, "Oz doesn't need Giles' approval and Giles doesn't (seem to) feel responsible for Oz". A moment in "The
Zeppo" (3x13) displays this dynamic beautifully simply:
The library door opens, and they look up to see Oz come in.
Oz: Hey. [He appears pissed off, though we never learn about what.]
The clock on the wall behind Giles shows it's 5:20pm.
Giles: (checks his watch) Um, y-you're cutting it a bit close.
Oz: (steps into the cage) Well, you know me.
Giles seems reluctant to take Oz to task, as he would, without thinking, Buffy, Xander or Willow, and Oz offers no explanation. He pulls
the cage door shut, and the scene is over.
They are the smartest members of the group; while Willow's original role as brainy hacker gradually morphs into that of powerful witch,
Giles is always the brains of the operation, as demonstrated by his role in the "Primeval" spell as "Sophus...Mind". For his part, Oz is
"the highest scoring person ever to fail to graduate". Their similarities extend to how they deal with crisis; both attempt to shoulder
all of the responsibility on their own. Giles, in "The Dark Age" (2x08), knows that Eyghon is coming after members of his old group one
by one; he doesn't tell anyone until Ethan appears. Oz, in "Phases" (2x15), knows that he is a werewolf and sets about chaining himself
up. Both he and Giles tackle the threats they pose at home, rather than in the familiar context of the library, site of group
problem solving. Oz's resolute self-sufficiency continues in both "Wild at Heart" (4x06) and "New Moon Rising" (4x19); he doesn't tell
Willow about Veruca and her presence in his life until she discovers them naked in the cage, and when he returns near the close of the
season, he is isolated in the Initiative's facility without recourse to the Scoobies.
Moreover, both Giles and Oz, at different times, *leave* Sunnydale. Unlike Angel and Cordelia, who also leave but who remain in touch,
when Oz and Giles leave, they appear to vanish from contact. Upon his return in "New Moon Rising", Oz finds out that Willow had tried to
write him, but had no address; when he leaves at the end of that episode, he is never heard from again. When Giles returns at the end of
Season 6, having missed some major events - Buffy's descent into a relationship with Spike, Xander and Anya's abortive wedding, and
Willow's turn to the dark side - Buffy has to catch him up. No one called him, just as no one hears from Oz. On a show and in a group
structured according to shared secrets, close-knit constructed-family ties and, above all, staying in Sunnydale, Oz and Giles are
again different from other people.
The affinity one can sense between Giles and Oz is dramatized most explicitly in "The Wish" (3x09). In the first of the series' canon
alternate-universes, Giles and Oz are allied as White Hats, stalwartly resisting the Master's ever-growing power in Sunnydale. Xander and
Willow, who in the previous episode, "Lovers' Walk", destroyed the group's status quo when they were caught kissing, appear as the
Master's favorite proteges. As Cordelia exclaims, "No way! I wish us into Bizarro Land, and you guys are *still* together?" The Wishverse
isn't quite Bizarro-Land, because it isn't an inversion of the existing order. It is, rather, an extended riff on characters' potential
and qualities. Larry, for example, is a White Hat, prefiguring his death in the graduation day melee; Giles is a *former* Watcher, as he
soon will become in "Helpless" (3x12); and vamp!Willow evinces signs of what Willow will become in ensuing seasons, both in terms of her
flexible sexuality and her penchant for darkness (Willow murmurs "Bored now" just before flaying Warren, just as her vampire doppelganger
did upon meeting Cordy). It is, then, not entirely ridiculous to find evidence for Oz and Giles' similarities in canon within their
alliance in the Wishverse.
This ship's appeal is, in the end, difficult to pin down. From my experience, either you get *it* (whatever it is) or you don't. Either
you think that a 45-year-old, highly educated Englishman and an 18-year-old alt-rock SoCal boy have a vibe between them that deserves
elaboration and exploration, or you scoff, get squicked, and turn to a superficially "prettier" pairing.
I first became interested in the pairing via a strangely tangled route - I wanted to try to write Oz and I had just read Te's
href="http://teland.com/buffy.html#summer">Summer Reading series, which is Giles/Xander and quite good. Yet I was, honestly,
slightly disturbed by the prevalence of Giles/Scoobie fic, because so little of it seemed to address the significant power imbalance and
other issues that would seem to exist in a relationship that's both intergenerational *and* overlaid with Giles' paternal/avuncular role.
I set about writing Giles/Oz to test whether I could credibly address those issues and/or convince myself that such a relationship was
possible. I chose Oz for all of the reasons I've limned here - not that I could *name* them at that point, but because I had a hunch he
would hold Giles' interest. In other words, Oz is the most mature of the Scoobies and has the most in common with Giles; furthermore,
he's a more interesting, less *overtly* and explicitly characterized character than Xander, and he is more peripheral to the core Scoobie
dynamic, all of which made him a more attractive challenge to tackle. It helped to discover that some of my favorite Oz-writers, like
Dolores Labouchere, Kate Bolin, & Sheila Perez, had written Giles/Oz fic that I found compelling and believable.
Neither fic nor the show alone, then, made me a believer so much as a confluence of suggestive canon, personal interest, and good fic.
href="http://www.exitseraphim.net/glossings/daniel.html">Book of Daniel was, I thought, supposed to show me that Giles/Scoobie fic
couldn't work; instead, I ended up writing a love story that I'm *still* trying to understand.
There is very little explicit canon subtext for this ship; I've used canon throughout this essay to point out the moments that seem to
suggest and spark the affinity between these two. For explicit subtext, just two moments spring to mind. First, there is the long, silent
*gaze* Giles gives a naked, sleeping Oz in the cage before unlocking it in "Beauty and the Beasts", a moment which has inspired roughly
30% of all fic in this ship, that of the naked-caged-Oz and Giles-the-lusty-Watcher subgenre. The other moment is the "Either I'm
borrowing all your albums or I'm moving in" exchange in "Harsh Light of Day" (4x03), centering on the Velvet Underground's album
"Loaded". This exchange is followed up in the opening scene of "Wild At Heart" (4x06), when Giles shows up unexpectedly at the Bronze. In
response to the group's shock and discomfort at his presence, he protests that he is hip to music:
Buffy: Yes, but it's your cutting edge 8-tracks that keep you ahead of the scene.
Oz: Don't scoff, gang. I've seen Giles' collection. He was an animal in his day.
Giles: Thank you.
Here we have the essence of G/O in their group context -- Buffy makes fun of Giles' age, Oz quietly respects Giles, and Giles is grateful
and formal. That Oz uses the term "animal" for Giles not only as his werewolf stalker Veruca takes the stage, but in the same episode in
which he *kills* Veruca and leaves Sunnydale in order to learn how to control the monster is, at the very least, suggestive. It's not the
kind of subtext that's fairly indisputable, like Spike and Xander's "moist and delicious" exchange or Angel and Spike holding hands;
instead, it's evocative, redolent, subtle.
G/O shippers will tell you that there's more subtext to be found, and there does seem to be quite a bit of cross-cutting and reaction
shots, in addition to physical proximity, between Giles and Oz, especially in s4, but our subtext, like the members of our ship, is
peripheral and very quiet. It is composed, again, of a vibe much more than it is of hamhanded, intentionally homoerotic subtext. Shipping
these two requires a willingness to explore and riff on affinity, maturity, and melancholy.
I can't force you to like Giles/Oz. Besides, it would violate everything that's wonderful about them to even think I could try. But if
any of this has touched something in you, something mellow or pained, loving or lonely, then this might be a pairing you should check out.
They'll wait. They're patient like that.
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